Holiday!

Talking to Khair about holidays makes excited to go for one.
I want to travel to Aussie again! This time bringing my parents along.

I'm going to save up my money once I start working in January and bring my parents to Aussie for maybe one week trip. So exciting!!!! :D Looking forward to it!!

Dramatic end to my NCAP course

Finally, after 3 weeks of so-called intense NCAP course, it is finally over! Exam on the last day of the 10th lesson. A total dramatic closure to my NCAP course which I will never forget at least for the next few months.

I HAVE NEVER BEEN LATE for an exam in my entire 16years of life as a student until that night, 13 Dec 2010. Gosh...that was one of the most panicky moment in my life!

Exam was at 7.30pm at the PSB Academy, Tiong Bahru. Left house at about 6.30-6.40pm. Usually, I will reach the place either slightly earlier or on the dot but not that freaking day. Waited for the feeder bus for about 5 minutes as usual which made me reached Yew Tee at about 6.50pm. Not a problem!
Then i need to wait a freaking 6minutes for the train to arrive. Okay fine! not much problem.
The horror started when the freaking bloody train stuck in the middle of the track to Jurong East for about 5 freaking minutes! I reached Jurong East at about 7.10pm. Fine...still ok.
The freaking train didn't come for the next 5 F-king minutes and they don't even display the train's arrival time. The next thing I heard was "The train at Platform A towards for Pasir Ris is not for passenger service." I was like WTF?? It was 7.20pm by then!
Rushed down to look for a cab. The interesting thing was I don't even know where on earth is the taxi stand. So i ran towards the old Jurong Entertaiment with the hope I will get a cab but there is not even a single one on the freaking road! Search frantically for the cab and luckily i got one! phew....
Asked the uncle to drive me to the place and then i asked him...
"Uncle, how long will it take ah?"
"Erm, with this kind of traffic, maybe 30mins..."
"What??? Seriously...? I'm late for my exams already.... Uncle, got take NETS?"
"No, only credit cards or Ez-link card..."
"What....?? I got not enough cash la uncle..."
"Maybe we can stop nearby petrol kiosk and you can withdraw..."
"No Uncle, I very late for my exams already..."
Cut story short....thank god traffic was so nice to me and I have enough money to pay the fare using my ez-link card.... phew! Reached at 7.45pm at the expense of my increase heart rate, shaky hand and $14.

Uncle so nice that he even wished me good luck for my exams. While on our way, i think he could sensed my urgency...he went to scold this driver who drove at 70km/hr on the expressway...and another driver who sort of road hog on the 1st lane.. lol.

Thank you Uncle! :D

Luckily, exam wasn't that difficult and I managed to finish it just in time. Hopefully, I will pass...which I should since I can pass my more difficult biology papers... hmmm.... *pray hard*

Albatross's BBQ

Last night was awesome! Albatross BBQ session. As usual, i wasn't involve in the bbq-ing. :P

Throwing frisbee across the pool was awesome. Managed to do few nice throws across until someone's throw caused the disc to be landed in the pool. The process of trying to retrieve it was hilarious. In the end, we did a "row-row-your boat" method upon Jill's suggestion. It works!!!! Kids lined up behind us and watched us entertaining ourselves..lol... The game played - Signs and Polar Bear / Panda - was fun too. Had a great night last night. :D

Voyage de la Vie

Voyage de la Vie! A circus theatrical at Resort World Sentosa. Thanks to Cheryl for the tickets. Went to watch the show with Cheryl, Jill, Amy and 2 newly met friends, Lynnshan and Candida.
It was such an awesome show. Love the stunts by all those professionals. We were so awed by it. Performance by our 1st Singapore Idol runner-up, Jonathan Leong, was equally amazing. In short, the show was great!

Since my navigation skills on Singapore road is "very good", I decided to let Jill take the 4 wheels and drive us around. Picked her up at Adam Road food centre and off to pick the others at Vivo. Gosh, the ride was quite adventurous. Stared by 3 different drivers during our short trip to Vivo. hahaha...

One of my dumbest moment at that night was to forget where we parked our car. I totally didn't realise I was actually standing right in front of my car. I still told Amy to go to the other side of the car park to look for my car when mine is actually, right in front of my eyes. hahaah... Jill thought I was trying to trick them. *faints*

Coffee-ing at Coffee Bean after that was great! Love to just chill out and have those random talk and laugh. I think it was the first time I actually hanged out till like 1am. Woootz! This is what happen, when you have your own transport.

Reached home at 2am! heehee..... =)


I so love that Thursday night! Love the company!!!!

I'm loving every minutes I spent on the court. Didn't regret with the decision made. The change was good. Thank goodness for that. =)

Anyway, I got the teaching job. Will be doing my contract teaching when school starts next year. I so hope they can accept my request to change to Secondary school PE-Biology. please, I so wanna teach Biology! I thought I won't be going into teaching anytime soon because like I told people, I wanna do something that is related to my degree. Oh wells, I guess this is a calling. I'm not going into teaching because I can't find a job. I will say I didn't get other jobs because I am meant to be a teacher. Only Him knows better. But seriously, I felt a lot better after I applied for teaching position. Maybe all this while, I'm denying what I'm suppose to be. I feel good about this decision made. People say teacher is a very stressful, underpaid job. Oh wells, other jobs have their own stress too. So ya, we cannot always compare. Some may said being a teacher is not a good choice, but if everyone thinks that way, who will be there to teach your kids in the future. Someone has to do it if you are too arrogant by saying that teaching is a bad 1st career job. We'll see how it goes. =)

Gastroenteritis or stomach flu is really not a fun thing. Okay, since when getting sick is fun...? I got a taste of what stomach flu is on Saturday night. gosh....felt as though I can die of dehydration because of the amount of water that I threw out from my body. Stomach doesn't feel that good since the Saturday evening. After Albatross game, joined some of them for dinner. The chicken rice I bought seriously looks good but I just have no appetite to eat it. Not even a spoonful. Halfway through dinner, I had to leave first before anything bad happen. Cab back home. There goes my $12. Almost threw out in the cab but luckily I managed to control and endure all the way till I reached home. The moment I reached home, toilet is the first thing I looked for. Puked like siow. Like the one showed in Exorcist. crazy man. That was just the beginning. Vomit and diarrhea the whole night. Can't eat or drink anything as I will throw them out again. Had to see doctor at 4.30am. There goes my $96! gosh!!!

Thank goodness it only last for one night. Felt much better today but I have to avoid spicy food. =(

=)

Finally, the sms I've been waiting for had came in. I'm so relieved about it. I guess this is why I haven't receive any offer after countless applications. Oh wells... I am pretty sure that this is what I want to do because until now, I have yet to ask myself "is this what i want?" We'll just wait and see. If this doesn't work, I still have Plan B to fall back on. =)


Some random thing.... today's training was awesome! shiok! Have warmed up a lil with my new teammates. =) Game session was shiok too. Forward is fun. i guess i will go back to play as a forward. wheeeeeeeeeee!!!!! Btw, I fell again during floorball training. wah lao...fell like a bear being shot by a hunter. bleachz!


Alrights,
Princess logging of now. lol!

Emo entry....

I was upset and disappointed few hours ago. Something I sort of looked forward to is being taken away from me. How cruel life can be huh. Oh well, what can I do. Sometimes, good things have to wait. But why it always happen to me! I realised, the things that I always wanted the most is always the most difficult thing to get. This is not the first time. gosh. i wish God will be kinder to me sometimes. By saying this, i felt as though I have no faith in Him... after all these years, He has given me good life, good family and good health, what more can I asked from Him? I believed this is just a little test for me from Him.

I was so upset that I decided to share it with a couple of my friends. What friends are for.. they are there to comfort you with those encouraging words at times like this. I'm grateful for that. Sometimes i wish i have an older sister. For me share my problems, my feelings and have a shoulder to cry on.


Oh wells, it is not the end of the world. I just have to keep on trying and not to give up.

Yesterday was my 2nd training with the team. I am getting use to travel all the way to the east for training. The traveling from east back to west, still adapting. How I wish i can drive down to my training venue and drive back home. Anyway, i'm loving every bits and pieces of the training which includes the body aches the next day. I'm really enjoying it. Looking forward for more trainings!

I am seriously enjoying what I am doing now. Not the bumming at home part. Coaching. It is really enjoyable and satisfying to coach those lil kids playing floorball. Of course, there are moments when you feel like strangling them but other than that, it is a real fun! However, the sad part is that I foresee i won't be able to do this for long because I will (more of hoping) to get a stable job soon. boooo! At least I got to do something which I have been wanting to do last time. Thank God for giving me this opportunity and having me meet some wonderful people which opens the door to all those opportunity. Alhamdulillah.

Officially announced!

So, I have officially announced of my decision. The decision which I have made few months ago. I am happy with my decision. Thankfully, all of them understand.

Had a great seasons with them though my first season was absolutely............. Anyway, things got better after that and I truly enjoyed the next 2 seasons with them. Learnt a lot from all of them and i believed I have improved somehow somewhere. Will miss playing with them. I can feel it now though. boo! Sometimes, we need to learn to step out of our comfort zone. Life is short, we definitely cannot try everything we want but we are sure to be able to try some of the things we want. And one of it is this.

I am looking forward to the whole new things that awaits me. New people, new training regime, new environment and definitely new experience! It doesn't matter whether I will be playing in Division 1 or 2 in the upcoming season, what matters I got to play with someone whom I looked up to. wooootz!! Really excited! =D

Hello new experience!!!!

the new A.T.M

I am the new ATM! lol. This is pretty cool =D

Lower part of my body has been aching since Wednesday after the floorball training. Gosh..it shows how long I haven't been doing proper exercise or gone for proper floorball training. *faints* I guess from now onwards, I need to get use to travel for 1hr plus to the training venue. gg! Never mind, looking forward to all the new environment, new people, new styles and most important, new experience! wooootz!!


Dinner @ Seoul Garden with Syed, Khair and Khazila. Our annual Seoul Garden dinner but missing Siti. Hanging out with these 2 guys will always make you laugh. Eat till you are really bloated. tsk tsk....

and so the move is confirmed. =)

looking forward to it....wooootz!

bye bye old thing and hello new one! a whole new experience awaits.....!

Latest Update of my life

It has been a month since I last blogged!! woootz! The reason why I didn't blog is that there is nothing much interesting thing that happened for the past one month. Life is so mundane since I graduate and unemployed. How sad is that!!

Anyway, while I have yet to find a full time job, I am currently doing some coaching. So I cannot really say I am unemployed. heehee... Now I am doing this SEP Program at this particular Primary School which happens to be where my friend is teaching at. How interesting is that! Coaching these lil kids is fun. Really enjoy doing it though they can be a pain-in-the-ass sometimes. =D

I always wonder why I still haven't got any job offer after countless resume sent. Jill asked me, "How much do I want it?" and my answer was, "eeerrrrrrr........hmmmm....." So, ya...maybe I didn't want it that bad or I didn't try hard enough... hmmm... oh well.... I really hope I will get a job asap but that will means I will have to stop coaching.... well, sometime in life, you can't get all the things you want.... =(

Did some SEP lesson plan for this SEP program which I'm coaching at. I always love to do this kind of i-will-call-some-admin-work. I am pretty proud of the work I've done. wheeee! Most of it, felt appreciated. That is why I love to do it.... =D

Alrights as of now, I think some of them know of my decision... Hope they are ok with it. Just trying out new things. Life is short...can't try all but have to try something. I think it will be GREAT! wooootz...looking forward to it =)

I have a new blog just for the cakes i baked. =D

http://bake-and-eat.blogspot.com/

It has been almost 3 weeks since I touched my floorball stick. It has been 3 weeks since I do some exercises. ooooppppssssss..... heehee.

Friendly with Albatross this morning. My side, there were only 6 and half players (1 is sick). 6.5 players against 20 players. gg! They donated one line and a goalie to us. Wasn't a bad game. I guess we did pretty well considering having only 2 lines. I guess the score was 8-5 or 8-6. Scored one. woootz! I think I'm getting the hang of playing on the right side.

Next year....next year. hahahah.... I'm waiting! =)

It has ended

And so, the league has comes to its end. It has been a great season with my team. We didn't have a great start but we ended the league with a great one. I'm loving the team as the days go by. I felt we grew stronger and more bonded over the years. Without realising, it has also been 4 years since I started playing floorball and it has also been 4 years since I played with some of them. So far, this is the longest sports i have been playing and still counting. The bonds and the love in the team makes me think twice on my supposedly decided decision. I enjoy playing floorball and of course, I enjoy playing with my team even though I had complaints in the initial start. I believed those are part and parcel of being in a team sports. You have to adapt to it and not expecting them to adapt to you.

For now, I will take a loooooooooong break from floorball and decide on it when the time comes. Actually, I kinda have made up my mind but if situation changes, then perhaps, my decision will too.

Awesome game

Today's game was AWESOME! Won SMU 11-1. and the more awesome thing was I scored 4 goals. woooootzz! i kind of like all my goals. 1 rebound goal...and errm, one solo effort goal. I love the sprint and run from our corner all the way up to their side and score 1. so freaking awesome. Finally...got my rebound right! lol. *enough of self praising. hahahah*

Everyone played all well today. The passes were good, the play up was simple but great...and I felt we all had a better chemistry with each other. awesome! Simply, love today's game. 2 more games left before the end of the season. =)

Nothing much to say. If only this game was recorded... then I can always replay my goals. hahaha.... =P

AWESOME SUNDAY!! =p

World Cup 2010 has come to its end =(

They will be my all time favourite team =)
GERMANY!

The joy returns!

I'm starting to again find the joy in playing floorball with my team. 4 games left and I will make sure I will give all my best in these remaining games. Run hard to attack and defend and will do all my best in all ways =) Feel the pleasure of running hard...miss that!

Was super late for training today cos I didn't expect my madrasah class (religous class) to end so late. I still managed to learn something. A drill was created to cater my needs. awesome! heehee.... =) I'm really enjoying myself during trainings lately =) awesome! Found the motivation again after it went to nowhere few weeks ago.

Felt more attached to the team now. All these make me to rethink my decision again but I pretty much made up my mind. We shall see as the time comes. =) I hope my heart and brain will coordinate about this decision.

All the so hype enthu expression before the Germany-Spain begins. Drastic transition in the expression after........................................... =S

Germany and Klose...super AWESOME!

My all time favourite Germany striker, Miroslav Klose. Of course, I love my Germany team too. Thomas Muller, Schweinsteiger, Podolski, Ozil, Philip Lahm, Neuer and others.

This 2010 team is more awesome than the Euro 2008 and WC 2006 team. =)

I love you GERMANY!!!! =)




Tempest BBQ last night was awesome! Had a great time with my teammies =) On top of that, watching Argentina being trashed by Germany just made last night superbly awesome!
The BBQ-ed prawn was nice! yummy!!!! =D
This make me think twice of my supposedly decided decision....hmmm.....

Some of us keep a blog so they can pen or actually type down their thoughts. Blog is just another version of diary with diary being more private. As a lot of people know, we can either keep our blog private or public and of course, i choose public...that's why others can read and actually replied my entry through my tagboard. Even I'm not in America, I believed I have that freedom of speech as long as i don't talk about government, religion or race, I can say what I want to say. Yes, I am bitchy sometimes...it is in every living person. But as far as i remember, I have NEVER ever mentioned a person's name when I bitch. Trying to maintain that confidential thing. Anyway, who actually bothers to read my blog. Even my friends don't know that I have a blog. Too bad, some people actually took it to personally cos they felt my entry directed to them. What can I say about that....? This didn't happen once but ya, what can I say....I don't need to say anymore to prove my points cos the action taken just proved my points... =)

Anyway, I feel I shouldn't talk so much about this cos I don't want to drop another nuclear bomb and create so much trouble. You never know what's out there. Humans are very difficult subject to understand. Sometimes, you just wouldn't understand why some people act certain ways. It takes a really good person to convince others and find their way out just like Hitler, Osama, George Bush and many others. So for the sake of everyone, it shall end here.

Sometime apologizing doesn't make you lose on the losing side. When fire fights with fire, you all know what will happen....


Anyway, lost to Owls today. 11-2. sigh.
I felt this was neither my better game compared to the Jupitans'. I did score one. but I know i can do better in other aspects. Actually I didn't see where the goalpost was but I somehow know it is there. I had a couple of practise for those kind. heehee.... I must always try to take a wrist shot!

On a brighter note, GERMANY WON ENGLAND!!! Woohooo......superb play by the Germans. They just kicked England's asses hard man! super awesome! Really happy that they won against England. wooooootzzzz!

Our 3rd League game and our second win =)
Game against Singapore School Girls. We won 9-4.
Didn't have a good start in the first period but we managed to get into the game from the 2nd period onwards.

Individually, I don't think this was my better game. Made 2 nice passes to Xinlin which she converted it to 2 goals. Awesome! Same kind of passes with the same kind of goals. =) I didn't do a lot of runnings or hard runnings. Must be the tiredness in me due to the lack of sleep, thanks to WC! Though I didn't feel it, it is somehow in me. Sigh. There are still a lot of things for me to work on especially getting my shorts on target while running down the boards. What makes a good player is their consistency. Being consistent through out. 5 more games left.


In life, there are people who come and go in our lives. Some will stay while some will evaporate into thin air. Even those who evaporate into thin air may leave a little footprint which made their short presence memorable. There are also some who are there but left a black spot. These are the people who don't worth my time, not a second. Apparently, I made a mistake last night. Wasted few minutes of my precious time on some nonsense thing which I should have not even bothered. Its ok, I learnt from my mistakes. Those are the people whom I would say like flies which fly around our food trying to contaminate them.

Sometimes, keeping quiet does not mean you lose. Like I mentioned, sometimes keeping quiet is the best thing we can do for ourselves and others. Why waste our effort on something which not worth a single thing....

Brazil-Portugal game, such a disappointment....zzzzzzz..........

awesome weekends!

Had a packed but fun and awesome weekends. This weekend is also lesser sleep days. All thanks to World Cup. =D

Saturday was floorball training day as usual. After training, some of us met up to watch Holland-Japan game. The atmosphere was not bad. quite interesting.

Sunday was the more awesome day! Beach Floorball in the morning. Playing floorball at the beach, IN SINGAPORE was not a fantastic idea. The sands super cannot make it. so coarse and horrible. plus, playing bare footed, not a superb idea either. Jill, Aiwen and myself were injured but not as bad as Aiwen's. bleachz! Anyway, it was a great experience. The free facial scrubs, raining sand, having sands scooped to your face. omg! Jumping on the trampoline was great! Felt like lil kids. awesome man! Then, Lunch @ ECP. Off to Joan's house for a lepak session before heading down to Clementi Sports Hall to watch Moosemen-ZARF game.

Dinner @ Bedok Corner before heading down to CSH. Every time I go out and eat with Jill, I always HAVE to eat something which I don't like. Tried coconut drink, cockles, cucumber and just now was a HUGE cabbage. Never mind, I will always take up the challenge. It was pretty good too.. =)

Lazy to type more...in conclusion, TODAY WAS AWESOME!!! Really had a great time with Pris, Stella, Aiwen, Joan and Jill. =)

It is disappointing when you tried to make some changes and inject something new but others just couldn't share that vision with you.
It is disappointing when you thought you managed to make some changes but just to find out you actually fail because they resist in accepting the changes.

Since I cannot change others, i guess it is time for me to venture out and look for the change that I tried to introduce to others.
Since they cannot change, it is time for me to change.

When the motivation is about to keep on increasing, it has now reach to a stop. Hopefully it will be temporary.

For now, I'm still stuck and have nowhere to go. All I can do is to hope that it will end soon.


Beach Floorball tmr!! weeeeeee.......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

=)

Tempest vs Jupitans - 8-1.

The game was awesome! We played way better than the last game against Pinkies. We all survived well with only 2 lines. I also survived the game in one piece even though I have to keep on blowing my nose everytime i'm at the bench. And ya, my throat wasn't helping either. But I survived. =)

As for myself, i think i played well. ran really hard (at least for the first two periods...) I loike! the feeling of running hard was really shiok. Tried to cut in the center few times and I managed! Listening to her really helps! =D My shots...! ARGH!!! 80% were off target. freaking crap! Nonetheless, I scored a goal which i didn't expect to go in. wooootz!

"Play your heart out and enjoy the pleasure of running hard." Did that and I really felt the pleasure of running hard. awesome!

Sms from Alvin made me smile =D - fast, aggressive and lethal. =D
Maybe with more of my shots on target, i will be more lethal. hahahah...

The only way we can go is UP!

Down with slight fever now. sian.
Sky juice shall be my favourite drink for now. =S

SORE THROAT

and so, I got my sore throat back in less than 1 week after i recovered. The feeling is freaking suck especially when I have game in like 11 hours time. Suck big time! Not only that, I'm having a nose blocked too. HOW GREAT CAN THAT BE!


S2 reunion dinner @ Manhattan Fish Market @ Marina Sq. SERVICE - suck! made us waited for 1 hours when Michelle actually had called them up to make reservation. AND THEY STILL HAVE THE FACE TO CHARGE US 10% SERVICE CHARGE! Not only that, one of the waiters actually spilled a drink on Fida's boyfriend. Only SORRY? wth? The food is not that bad but ya, the service suck! and I don't think clearing the table while diners are still siting down is polite. That's rude!

Another session with the 'C' boys today. Not so bad.. But the boys today were like lil monkeys.. very talkative and playful as compared to the last few sessions. Maybe because of the absence of their fierce, strict teacher-in charge and Jill. Anyway, still managed to get them to do what I want them to do. I still managed to get their attention too. Overall, if you call class management, i will pass. =)

Another session with them this Thursday. Hopefully, they will be more well behaved than today.

My back always ache after doing some coaching...i wonder why... hmmm....

Cake for Mummy and Daddy

Tomorrow is the date but yesterday is the so-called celebration. =D
Baked a cake for their 30th Anniversary. I am pretty proud of how the cake turned out. wooooooottzzzzzzzzzzz!!

30 years and still counting.....

=D

Looking forward to Beach Floorball.... =D

3rd June 2010
Today's training was awesome. =D Enjoyed it. It was great to see almost everyone were motivated. So I guess, i will see more of working out our muscles session huh ....hahaha...

Eddie couldn't make it for training so yeap, Qiao'e and myself took over the training. It was great. Everyone cooperated..awesome! I guess the coaching i did help me a lil in gaining my confidence to step up a bit. Overall, today's training was pretty awesome! Arms aching now. hahaha...but i like. =D

Like i said, after talking to her, i always feel motivated. =D

Someone said I fake a fall? Oh please! Like you haven't done that.. by the way, it was not a fake. try running at a high speed and let someone nudge you. oh, maybe...you aren't running fast enough.. bleachz!

and that lil motivation is back. after talking to her, i always feel motivated =)


Beach Floorball anyone?

and so that lil motivation is gone. sob sob......

Fishing!

My first ever fishing trip! Overnight fishing @ Pulau Hantu. Fun!
Left this tiny island for another tiny winny island at 5pm yesterday. The boat ride is always awesome. The wind and the splashing of water are just shiok!

The whole fishing experience was great. Seeing people get excited when they see their rod moved, when they thought they caught a fish. Hilarious too. The people are nice and friendly. My welfare was well taken care of. haha. I was forced to drink a coconut juice/drink..eat cockles....

I caught one fish too this morning! Too bad didn't take picture of it =( The fried fish was awesome! niceeee! Super fresh!! Yummy!!

One not fun thing was I couldn't sleep at all. FOR THE WHOLE FREAKING NIGHT! so torturous. I think the coffee played a role in this. The weather wasn't helping either. freaking warm! People said if you can't sleep, try count sheep... tried counting the sheeps, donkeys, monkeys, gorillas, godzillas, dinosaurs... they didn't help. My brain was freaking active. I think I managed to catch a 10-20mins of sleep or i should say NAP....zzzz.....

Other than that, the whole experience was great. Meeting new people, making new friends... =) Showering in the toilets with no lights in the middle of the night, showering in cold water early in the morning, catching live fish and so on.... awesome!

Spent my night in Pulau Hantu....

Glad that she jio me for the trip =D

Slacking at the dock....

The crab which made us laugh our heads off when Jill touched it and the crab 'ran' for its life...freaking hilarious

I could have a good night sleep in that

Rise and Shine Baby!

Pris with her BIG catch.

Nice sky. Photo credited to Jill.


Me and the fishing rod.

Back to the mainland.

I have to practise more on capturing this kind of picture!!

When your heart is no longer there, everything seem so sian...everything seem very loooooooooooong cos you keep on counting the number of days for it to end.

I tried to be positive and optimist but I guess I can't, at least for now....all these make it bad...
- the low turn ups
- the lack of motivation (for myself)
- the lack of desire to continue (for myself)
- the not very good outcomes

I know I shouldn't be saying this cos I am suppose to be the motivated, optimistic one...hey, I'm human too... Maybe I shouldn't have hold it, I guess I don't deserve it...at least for now. If I can, I would want to run away but that will only make me look like a coward..

I tried not to think about this but how can I not when every week I have to go through it? Maybe I need some distractions...I wonder how some of them can endure it for years...out of loyalty? Maybe that is what makes me different from them...

The more I spend time with them (the different them), the greater the desire to leave.

Talking to a friend who is in the same boat doesn't make ourselves better but worst.... One thing for sure, we all have our UPs and DOWNs and this is my DOWN...hopefully, I will go UP soon... I think I should take a break but I guess I can't...

Recently my entries revolves around the same thing. Like I said, maybe this is my down period or maybe this is my PMS period. hahah...


ENDURE is what I shall do now and learn to enjoy it ONCE AGAIN....


endure...
endure...
endure...
endure...
endure...
endure...
endure...

For now, I have to finish where I started and hopefully, it will finish well and that opportunity I missed will come again.

The first thing I did when I wake up this morning was to ask my mum, "Can I go for an overnight fishing this Sunday??" She said, "GO la...." wwwoooooootzz!!!!

And so the long weekends are here...like there's any difference to me. lol.

Tomorrow: JB with parents
Saturday: Training then off to a gathering @ Pasir Ris
Sunday: Fishing trip!

awesome! =D


How can you not aware that that is your teammate. obviously you are not paying attention!!!!!!!! urgh! must be the PMS thing.....

And so, my friends and I have officially graduate. We are no longer an undergraduate. Our Uni lives came to a fullstop at 12am just now. I'm gonna miss Uni life no matter how much I hate it when I was in Uni. The friends I made, the people I met, the sports I picked up, the wonderful teammates I have... all that make my Uni life a colourful one. At the end of the day, when you looked back, you won't say (at least for myself) "I scored As for all my modules in that Uni" but you'll say, "those are the friends that I made when I was in that Uni." =)

No matter what kind of honours we graduated with, exciting and interesting challenges await for us. BRING IT ON BABY!


Enough of graduating stuff...

Today I crashed another team's training. awesome. the people are super friendly and welcoming. i loike. and encouraging too. =) Training wasn't as intensive as i expected but still a good one. Good for me to practise my shots and all other stuff. *getting to know my future teammates....hahahaha* First time crash training and got to eat cake and invited to their gathering... how interesting.. heehee... just at the right place at the right time. heehee....Anyhow, had a great time. More to come....?? hmmmm..... Supper somewhere @ AMK...food not so bad...had a great time talking and teasing someone...


Overnight fishing @ P. Hantu...? hmmmm.... hopefully mummy allows...

Looking forward to tomorrow evening. weeeeeeeeeee!!! eggciting!!!! =D

full of question marks.....

Still unemployed.
Still no replies. suck!

Still cannot figure out what I want to do in life.
I always want to do something meaningful in life. Not saying doing research is not meaningful. But I still couldn't convince myself fully that I should go into research. how now brown cow?




I shall go try out management position. =)

mixed and confused emotions =S

sometimes i secretly wish it to pass by quickly.
sometimes i hope it didn't.
sometimes i feel excited.
sometimes i don't feel excited.
sometimes i believe it.
sometimes i doubt it.
sometimes i enjoyed it.
sometimes i don't.

maybe the bad start just make it worst.
I hope these feelings will just go away. far far away. go to Shrek's world!!!

One word: DISAPPOINTED

My this entry will be emo.
Anyone happen to read and be offended, no offence. I'm just saying what my brain thinks and what my heart says.

One word to describe my feelings today. DISAPPOINTED.
No sure if I'm disappointed with myself or disappointed with the ____ or disappointed with the results.

What's the point of having the control but cannot convert it to a goal? What is the point if we have 50 shots on target but 0 goals? Your opponents have 10 shots but 5 goals. You call that hard luck? Do you call it luck when you managed to control the game so well but your shots are all over except the goal? what is the point of having a control when all people will say, they lost the game. even when people ask, you won't say, we played very well but no luck, we lost. losing 5 to nil...i wouldn't say it was because of hard luck. 1-0 maybe i would say they are lucky to win but 5-0. *no comments*
of course you have another people to blame, blame the ref. Ya, ref made some bad and stupid calls. But there are another freaking don't know how many more minutes we can make it right. sigh.

Totally disappointed with myself for having my shots which could be a goal went wide. freaking wide!

Practised so much, but still play like what.....? sigh!

Shall never stop believing. Never stop persevering cos I am not a person who gave up easily.

Quote for the day from a friend of mine and also my idol. Losing is easy but working purposefully to win take team work, change of mind and plenty hardwork. =)

Day 2 of coaching. I'm kind of enjoying it. Slowly gaining the confidence. =) Today, took like half of the session while Jill took the other half. =)
The boys are great. Well-disciplined, well-mannered. Overall, they're good lil boys.

Got a ride from Jill to AMK. Been quite sometime since have my butt on a motorcycle. It was raining half way through. shiok! Ride in the rain was pretty fun. Free massage. hahahah.
She rides more scarier than my 2 brothers...heehee....




OKAY! i just had my forehead hit against the edge of my shelves. SMACKED RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF MY FOREHEAD....i can feel the bump...tsktsk....

I always get excited when I think about it. More excited ever since I know it is really there and it is really happening. Please let this few months pass by quickly! Can't wait for it to happen. Hopefully when the time comes, I will get the chance to be part of it... woooosh! Can't wait, can't wait!



If only I'm not .......... then I will be able to ........... sigh!

Playing any sports requires you to have the composure. The confident to hold onto the ball and control it. It is always good to have that confidence but not being over confident. As a player, I believed I have that confident but I think sometime, I was a lil over confident. lol. At least i have that confidence rather than not having any confidence. =P

Had a friendly with NP yesterday. The game tells it all. sigh. There was a couple of good play but overall, I felt we can do much better. or at least, I can do much better. 2 mistake I made which cost us 2 goals. sigh! Since I cannot play the position I prefer, I shall work something out so that I can do what I always love to do. hmmmm.....

League is starting this weekend. gosh! suddenly I don't feel like playing. I don't feel prepared. urgh! I hate this feeling. I guess when the time comes, it will be a different feeling. i hope.

Tuesday, I have a coaching session. nervous when think about it. gonna coach the RI boys by myself. gosh! ggggrrrrr..........wish me luck!

after this, i guess it will be time for a change. sometime change is good. time to let go of certain thing and explore something new. can't wait for this. hopefully, i can. this can only happen, if it happens, in the next few months. or i shall say in 1 year time. zzzzz..... but let's get over and done with this current situation first. start well and hopefully, ends well too. =)

WE'VE GRAD!

And so yesterday marked the end of our undergraduate life. We have unofficially graduated! This is the moment we all have been waiting for. All the years of studying, mugging, exams and going through the same routine for 16 years have finally come to its end. Oh, I'm going to miss my student life.

SBS Poster Day 2010
Poster Day presentation was not as bad as I thought. I think I did pretty well presenting my poster to the visitors. Good job to me. =D One of my examiner, KY, is classic la! Came to my poster, looked for me then he went on to talk to other guy. When I presented to him, he was distracted and kept on looking at my neighbour's poster which he actually visited before. *no comments* I received good comments from the people. weeeee.......... =)
Standing on heels for 2 hours is bad...4 hours? TORTURE!

CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL MY FRIENDS (SBS OR NOT) FOR SURVIVING THESE 4 YEARS!

One chapter has closed and the new chapter begins. =D

I'm proud of my poster!

My poster neighbour, Huda.

My two besties! Always there to listen to each others complains and whines...

A friend whom I always disturbed to ask for help for my FYP.

There is no point saying "I will play my best for the team". SHOW IT! =)

When there's a will, there's a way.
The statement is so true. If you do not have a passion in doing something, you will find every reason to make sure you avoid it. There's a saying in Malay, "hendak seribu daya, tak hendak, seribu dalih." Translation: If you want it, you will do it in every possible way but if you don't want it, you find thousand of excuses.

I do feel that way sometimes.


If there's no passion in it, then why continue. right? go rilek one corner sua.

and so league is starting soon. like pretty soon. in about 2 weeks time....???

are we ready? hmmm..... we'll just wait and see. =D

Barca is out of Champions League

Sad to see my Barcelona is out of the Champions League finals. sob sob. so many chances yet they can't find a slot to take shot. Have to say Inter did extremely well in defending even with 10 men.

So stress watching them play. gg.

Never mind, at least there's still Bayern Munich. =D


Looking for a job is damn sian. like seriously sian! argh!

Days after thesis submission

Been quite awhile since i last blogged. a lil lazy plus nothing interesting thing to blog about.

Anyway, i had submitted my thesis few days ago. the feeling is just so shiok. =)
Made Huda waited for about an hour to submit our thesis together. lol. sorry yo!
Let her looked through my thesis while waiting for our dearest Nas...and guess what??!!

Huda: Eh, your acknowledgment is spelled wrongly
Me: ................................................

So, we rushed to Eugene's lab to get edit it and reprinted it And dumb me no.2! I forgot to save the final version of my thesis (which is in .doc file) in my thumbdrive. how great can that be! so Huda had to help me retype my table of content page. lol. *faints* For that, she got a free lunch from me.

At least mine is not as bad as her who spent 32bucks on printing the thesis at LWN library. that is epic! 32 bucks!! double gg.

Anyway, life has not been so much interesting after thesis submission cos:
1. I have poster to design
2. I have to prepare myself for poster day
3. I cannot visualise how big my words will be on the poster with font size 16 and 19.
4. I have to shop for formal attire
5. I have to look for a job - not a fun thing to do
6. The worst thing is that I am freaking lazy to bake! gosh! LAZY???!!! argh!

That's all for now....

Wish me luck that I will find a job soon. =)

I shall be more of Xavi Hernandez instead of Lionel Messi. hmmmm....
Watching soccer really inspired me to be a better player. makes me think =)

Responsibility

No matter what kind of punishments and how many times you do it, if you are not responsible enough, then there is no point. seriously. all you do is just do the punishments without the feeling of guilt or responsible for the action you did. oh well, sometime it couldn't be help. not that i don't try, i do. i really do try very hard. perhaps, too hard. i should change and of course, i must change. it is not a good example you know with me having a responsibility in which others believe i can do. i am aware of it but i seriously have tried. sometime or most of the time, it just doesn't work. maybe i should change cos no point doing the same thing and get the same results that you don't want. hmmm...maybe should not drive down myself next time. to think again, that is not a good solution cos driving down is a comfort which i don't want to let it go. hee.
i cannot understand myself why i can be early or indeed very early for one but not this one. like i said, maybe i tried too hard. hmmm... i will do my best next time. shall never stop giving out my best though sometime people think you are not.

Okay, floorball today was great. as usual. floorball is just one of the best thing that happen in my life. i am grateful for taking up this sports which allows me to meet great, nice people too. i love the position i played today. sometime you just need to have the confident but not OVER confident. i should be more of the instructor instead of the instructed. alrights! more to come and more to learn. weeee....... learning in a continuous process no matter how good you think you are. =)

Alright! FYP thesis is coming to its end soon. VERY soon. that means I will be graduating soon. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! been waiting for this moment. excited but sad too cos I will leave behind my life as a student. The best life you can ever get. After this, it will no longer be the same. There is never a thing which will remains the same. =) time to move on.

Blame the fumes

Today's punchline in training: Blame the fumes.
LOL!!!
For today's training, I had no chemistry with Serene cos we kept on banging each other. funny. haha.

Had great time during training though only 8 turned up. gg.




No matter how good you are, there are always something that you will learn in every training. =)

The late nights

I've been staying up late for the past 3 days (including today). Why?
1. To study? NO! I have no exams this semester. heehee...
2. To do my report? So-so. Not the real reason =P
3. Watch soccer? YES! lol.

I cannot believe myself that I actually stayed up late to watch soccer. Not for one night but for 3 consecutive nights! How amazing. I learnt if I want to watch soccer at 3 in the morning, I cannot take a nap at all cos that will means I will miss either half the game (like the Barcelona vs Arsenal game) or worst, the whole game. So yeap, no sleep for me if i want to catch the game LIVE! So far, it was worthwhile. All my 3 favourite teams, Barcelona, Bayern Munich and Liverpool (as I'm typing this) had/is doing great. Thank you! I love you all =) Lionel Messi, you are my new idol now. Can I hug you though I know its haram (forbids in Islam)? Miroslav Klose will still be my 1st idol.

Finally Lucas did something wonderful today. Scored a goal. =)


Okay, back to staring my reports....errmmm....actually back to soccer. lol.

My new soccer idol. LIONEL MESSI

Lionel Messi is my new soccer idol! wwoooootz! He is just super awesome can. Scored 4 freaking nice goals in one game. omg! how incredible is that. plus he's quite cute. lol. worth staying up late to catch the game. I only managed to catch the 2nd half of the game though. heehee....but still...

Say HELLO to Barcelona! woooooooottttzzzzzz............

run round Singapore

218km in less than 36hours. they made it! How awesome is that? First runner reached NTU in 31hours plus. OMG! I really really salute these people. Their level of endurance must be freaking, awesomely high. Congrats for breaking the record in 1 piece. =) Once again, I salute you guys. I know you won't be reading this but I still wanna congrats you guys. you people are insanely amazing!! until now, i still cannot believed that you all actually did that. wow!

Anyway, I was part of the RSS yesterday. I only ran 1% of their total distance. omg! after quite sometimes of not jogging, i felt pretty awesome after jogging for 3km. Can't believe that I actually decided to go for the run. Didn't regret it cos like I said it was a pretty awesome feeling after completing the 3.1km run. lol. am I motivated to go for a run? hmmmm...........

Today was the carnival. 3-on-3 floorball. won the 3rd joint prize. $20 NTUC voucher each. ok la, not so bad. lol. =)

long and tiring weekends. back to reality, back to work, back to lab tmr. sigh.



ris low is co-hosting a show on 98.7fm....are you f***ing serious? heard it on the radio while driving. When I heard about it and the word boomz, I almost jam brake my car. hahaha. can you imagine if i do that? why on earth is she deejay-ing a radio show? seriously man. urgh! not that i listen to radio everyday. only does that while i'm driving but still...........

FYP...what else?

I guess most of my coursemate can't wait for FYP to end. Sometimes, i quietly hope that it won't end so soon cos graduation = debt + job searching + work + maybe unemployed. The whole process of job searching just turns me off. At the same time, graduation = hell lot of new challenges await all of us. Quite excited when think about it. hmmm..... overall, can say that I can't wait to graduate. wooooooosh!

To think that I started my FYP pretty late as compared to my peers and have pretty good results....hhmmmm.................

Time to write my results section! wwwoooooosh! =D

20 March 2010
Today's weather is freaking nice can? Really cooling morning and super nice to sleep in that I almost overslept. Thanks to Siti's sms, I woke up at 10.45am.

Today's attendance for training was a lil disappointment. Less than half the team turned up. sigh. Woke up a lil late, rushed down to Valhall just to find out only 8. Sometimes we just forgot the responsibility that was placed upon ourselves when we decided to do something. Just hope that won't happen again.

Anyway, had a great time during the session. 3-0n-3 and 4-on-4 for 1.5hours. Had to ask Eddie to make a u-turn because it was pretty no point to continue training with 8 players. Walking floorball is just hilarious. really funny. Overall, spent my Saturday morning/noon doing something useful.

1 more month to submission of thesis! weeeehoooo...........I still haven't write my results section. gg. looking forward to the end of fyp. I really enjoyed myself doing lab work CURRENTLY. sometime it can be quite sucky but i guess if you look at the bright side of life, you'll find it interesting. =)

why didn't they die?

Why didn't my cells die when they're suppose to die?
Did I grow a super duper cells?
Did my media contain some powerful chemical that it gain resistance to my nanoparticles?
Did I even put the nanoparticles? Yes I do, confirm plus chop!

This is the 2nd time it shows more or less the same results....hmmmm.... they're suppose to die!!!!
sigh!

i guess this is research, expect the unexpected!

Okay, now I have loads of data to be analysed. I don't even know where to start, how to start and how to organise it. Erm, i don't really know how to read them also. gg. super gg already. been staring at my lappy from 6pm till now and I didn't even do anything. how interesting is that. sian. Shall do it before next week. Another set of data coming up this week. sigh. I guess this is the most "interesting" part in doing research, analysing your result. after that comes the writing. gosh!

Anyway, left with about 1 month before the submission of thesis. how time flies. omg!


Had my lab cleaning session today. Was pretty early. What I did was just to clean one incubator and then I can go off already....zzzzzzzzzz..... spent 2 hours in the flow cytometer room in one of the labs in SBS. The lab is freaking cold. So, for my confocal study, i shall bring a jacket. off to bed. early morning tomorrow. =)

We're 23

Made a small cake for BFF, Rai. =) I seriously need to do a lot of practise...tried to make my Liverpool design but it didn't turn out well. So, no photo for that. lol. I shall never give up!

the Fetal Bovine Serum celebration on my birthday =S

Okay...so today I turned 23. 2 and 3. sounds and looks old. but who cares. young at heart and young at look is what I care most. hahaha. but seriously, i can't believe that I am 23. oh man....23. time flies huh. What ever the case, I am grateful to God for allowing me to live and see this number 23. I may not have achieve the greatest and wonderful things in life, but i know i have seen greatest and wonderful things in life =) I am happy with who I am.

So, birthday or not birthday day, life goes on as per normal. Only on this exceptional day, my facebook wall is flooded with all the well wishes. Thank you people. Appreciate it. =)

10 March, as I mentioned, just another day. Another day in the lab. But there's something interesting thing that happen in the lab. Not that I discover something interesting during my experiment nor there's any explosion in the lab. Today I had the FBS somehow all over the right side of my body. crap! Huda, if you are reading this, I know you are laughing. not funny okay. =P Was making my media and filtering the media when I accidentally pull the pump while I was bending down. And wahla! the whole thing toppled and yay....spill onto me. The smell of the FBS is damn freaking strong and damn smelly can. Luckily, my lab coat is the plastic kind so didn't really wet my shirt. but too bad my jeans and face were not spared. yucks! smelly...there goes my 500ml of DMEM. bleachz! Never mind, it gives me a reason to wash my lab coat and shoes.

Okay, I think i'm going to bake a birthday cake for myself on Friday. hahah. I wanna make a Liverpool cake. weeee....hopefully it will turn out nice. I'm so excited!!!

FYP

Okay, so today i went to meet my FYP supervisor to discuss something. alone. woooooo.....nervous. lol. It was okay, he is nice...friendly...patient...ie he is good. i mean really good compared to the post doc i'm attached to. i hope she don't find my blog. the probability of her finding my blog is like 1%. haha. Anyway, ya..he is good...he explained to me slowly (not that I am dumb that he has to do it that way...pfffft)...he made sure I understand the protocols and all that. I think he wants to make sure that I don't screw up the experiments since all that are $$$$$. ching! ching! ching! overall, he is good. i loike!
Asked him about my test result and guess what he said? "It's expected. EXPECTED!!" but my that post doc said "its weird. read that WEIRD". omg! With his explanation why it is expected, i believe him more than her. lol.

I think i really like what I am doing now though it can be sucky sometimes but yeah, i know what i want to do after i grad. Now, when people asked what are you going to do after you grad, I have the answer! yeah! =)


Sometimes i feel like stop exercising and just slack and collect all the fats and be fat. muahahahah....but that will not be the case!!!


oh yes, I'm going to be 23 soon. twenty three. 2 and 3. omg! time flies!!!

Tempest training was fun. Since the last season, I have been enjoying myself during the training. Training isn't that intense nor slack (just that sometime I find it quite slack when I'm in the floorball mood...if I'm not, like yesterday, then I find it okay...lol). Yesterday's turn up wasn't as bad as we expected.
I seriously think that valhall overcharge their user. The ulu-ness of the place, the condition of the court, the not working fan, the very hot-like-oven (sometime) condition of the court...60bucks/hour..that is a daylight robbery man. if u're desperate and no choice, then no choice lor. lol.

In the evening, IVP BBQ at Khai's place. Most of us ended up in the wrong condo. lol. Had a great time there. slacking and chit chatting and laughing and the non stop drinking...ice lemon tea....really fun. enjoyed myself there and i believed the others too. I'm gonna miss them man...I'm gonna miss playing IVP.

Baked cake for them..as usual. I hope it is nice..that cake was my 3rd tries. Luckily I managed to bake a successful one. thanks to my mummy. mummy is the best! I really love baking. I find the joy in baking. =) More cakes to come!!!!

I like the boss of that cake shop. the one at Haig Road, Geylang. He is so friendly and helpful. He even gave me some advice on cake baking. =)

It has been quite sometimes since I last blogged. There's nothing much interesting to blog about.

Have been busy with FYP. Believed most of my coursemates too. Sometimes I think I'm pretty slack cos some days i will go to lab at 1pm and off at 5pm. lol. Life as a researcher can be quite fun. I think I like what I am doing now. So ya, I know what I am going to do after I grad. yay! I don't think I will be able to continue my PhD study anytime soon cos I'm not that smart. So ya, i will work in this area for awhile and when the opportunity arrives, I will grab it. insyaallah. I wanna further my studies overseas. =)

If I am a rich person, I will set up a scholarship for average student instead of for those who are smart. Shouldn't deprive these people because they are average person. I'm not against smart people cos I have a lot of friends who are smart and who have helped me in many ways. Why usually those scholarship are for those who only ace in their academic? why not those who are average but have the potential to ace, maybe not in academic wise but some other? These are the people who want to go further but because of $$, their ambition are being hinder. why let this happen? but too bad la ah...this is life.

Anyway, today I have no idea why I am so so tired and sleepy. Went to lab at 1pm and by 2pm, I was super sleepy. Pipetted my solution into the holes in between the wells. Not once or twice but thrice. Lucky I prepared the solution extra. gosh! 2 hours incubation time. Made my way from the MSE lab to SBS (cos I have no office or wateva, i only have that small lab) to take a nap. OMG! the walk from the lab to SBS is like taking forever. At one point, I felt like just drop to my knees and sleep along the corridor. lol. slowly made my way to SBS with my eyes half open. Power nap at the sofa at SBS. haiz, no idea why I was so tired today. =S

I have this ultimate project in mind! Excitiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiingggggggggggggggggggggggggggg!!!!!!

Not making any promises is better than making empty promises.

We tend to say something before we have it but once we have it, we will do just the opposite.

Women go through a lot of thing through out their life and I think it can never be understand by men. Same goes the other way too. I seriously think that we, women, go through more challenges than them. From having periods to child labour to menopause. All these can only be experience by people called woman. As everyone knows, during those periods, there are biological/hormonal changes in our body that we sometimes cannot understand it. The mood swings is the prominent one, i guess. We just need to learn to be more understandable what women go through especially those in the menopausal period. Its easy for some of us to overlook it cos we don't experience it.

Sometimes we didn't realised the words that came out from our mouth, the actions we made actually hurt some people. They may seem happy on the outside but inside, deep down their heart, they are hurt. heartbroken. They just don't want to show it. We, humans, have our limits. Once we reach that limit, no one knows what will happen.

The promised made but never fulfill it. Not only disappoint me, but my mum too. I can see it through her actions that she is hurt. Thank you for the promise and thank you for not fulfilling it. It may seem not a big deal to you, but it means something to her. If you don't realise it, then too bad. If you do, please do something about it. Thank you.

kite flying part 2

Spent the CNY holiday afternoon at a field at Woodlands. Kite flying with my cousins. Love the kite flying stuff but not the aftermath. My kite flew high...high up in the sky. Went up all the way 200m high. weeee....... Took quite sometimes for me to get the hang of it...once its up there, its quite boring cos all you need to do is to maintain it there. The process of flying it is more fun. =)

The field was pretty dry or i shall say very dry. My newly bought spiderman kite flew away thanks to my younger brother. The string got cut by my cousin's string and yeah, it flew...freeing itself. and wooosh..it flew and dropped inside the S'pore Sports School. DAMN! double DAMN to the security guard for being lazy and not wanting to help my brother pick up the kite. you stupid son of a bitch guard. wish that you'll be retrenched soon. very soon! haha.

anyway, the whole event was fun. The aftermath was horrible. My cousins and I kena rashes. seriously horrible. can't stop scratching yesterday..felt like some berok (monkey)...bleachz! small red dots on my arms, legs and behind my neck. crap! Till today, it is still itchy. ppppffffttttt!

What is the best way to spend your holiday without spending money? stay at home! laze around and just laze around. (don't stuff your mouth with junk food...that is a no no.... just laze around). It is fun. hahah. just wasting your 24hours when you actually have tons of things to do. =P

so tomorrow is Wednesday. back to work, back to lab. I'm pretty excited. I hope everything goes smoothly so I can cruise through this period. eggciting!!!

kite flying

Finally, managed to go for kite flying. With my lil cousin. Just at an open field near my house. =)
"Kidnapped" my lil cousin after school today. It is totally not a good idea to fly kite at 3.30pm unless you want to go blind. For today, I had no choice since I need to send my cousin back home before 5. bleachz! anyway, had a great time with him =)

My this cousin is genius man. Not that genius genius who can sit for A'Level at the age of 12. He is special and genius in his own way. Taught him once how to fly a kite and wah la! he did it. He did it well. Another thing about him, he can memorise songs just by listening to it for few times, he can figure his way how to play a video game without reading the instruction or even if the game is in different language, he is good in sports, he can learn certain dance steps by watching videos... in other words, he is amazing. Not academically like what most people hope, but with those...i would say he is a great lil boy. I will always love and adore him.

Long weekends are here. weeee! Actually everyday was like a holiday to me since 2-3 months ago. hahahaha. Soon, I'll join the others...LAB!! hahah. positive.....positive......

When most of my coursemate are getting bored, stress, fed-up with FYP, I'm only about to get excited. Why? Because i'm only going to embark my FYP journey. how great is that?

Supposed to start like 1 month plus ago but due to unforeseen circumstances, I'm only able to begin my experiments next week. BOOMZ! Never mind, I will remain optimist just like my supervisor. haha. Seriously, i feel quite positive. If everything goes smoothly, I should be able to produce pretty good results. i hope. With experiments to conduct, I could see that I will have a pretty tight schedule in the coming weeks. Since I got the feeling I won't be able to get access to the lab outside office hours, that will mean my weekends will be free! yay!

I seriously think at the end of FYP, my eye sight will get a lil worst. If not, then good for me. On top of staring at your cells in the microscope, hours of times are spent staring at my this 17inch laptop screen reading articles. sigh. Not only that, I will help to increase the utility bills in my house too. But thank goodness that it is pretty windy now. Its damn windy that I feel like I'm at the beach. so cooling can. So fans are not on when the door is open, erm like now..at this time, 12.32am....so i guess not much diff made to my household utility bills.

Oh and ya, I have presentation to make for my next meeting. how interesting is that? this is SHINGZ!

OMG! I cannot believe i'm using those two words. hahaha.


Yay, kite flying this Sunday. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

At this moment, I'm not in any exercising mood...like I do to begin with...hahah. not even in the floorball mood. i guess a lil floorball overdose during IVP season. =)

Can I stop with whatever i'm doing now? Like quit now? I'm really really tired of doing it. Can someone please take over....please!!!!!! I beg you. anyone out there who is willing to take over. sigh. i just wanna slack like I used to.

I forgot to post up this picture. The highlight of the Finals (besides the lifting up of our trophy....)

Made cuppies for my teammates. I've planned this for about 2 weeks... heehee....
I hope it was nice.

Baking is really my hobby but i would say it is pretty expensive hobby... its okay, if you love something, it doesn't matter how much it cost you, you will still do it. One thing why I love baking is to see people enjoying the stuff i baked. seeing their smiles really give me that some kind of satisfaction. i enjoyed baking as much as people enjoyed eating it. One funny thing about me, I don't really eat the stuff I baked. hahah. Slowly, learning to eat the stuff I baked. =)

I've made quite a lot of stuff for my teammates for the past...errmmm..2-3 months. nutella roll, doughnuts, cookies, cup cakes... i'm gonna miss baking for them =(

Our gathering please.....i'm getting excited when I think about our next gathering cos I have something special planned (okay, i've killed the suspense....hahahah)...

Was watching this show, i think Amazing Wedding Cakes, on WE tv (Mio TV)..one of them was saying, "If you are not happy making it (baking/decorating cakes), you shouldn't be doing it."


a lil side track here...
On Friday, went for my fyp meeting... it was pretty okay....at the end of it...
PhD gal: Prof, what about Ain's project? She hasn't start on her fyp due to my absence.
Prof: So, do you feel the heat of not doing anything?
Me: erm, sort of..
Prof: Don't worry. Anyway, you are full time.
Me: ??????????????? Don't worry??? Okay, I shall not worry. hahah....

I am so happy that we ended the IVP season as a champion.
What is more important than winning the title is the process towards it. Friendship that were forged. We went through the ups and down together as team. There were a lil hiccups along the process but we managed to pull through as a team. I am glad that we did it. I am very proud of the gals and very proud to be part of the team. I am always proud to be part of the NTU IVP Floorball team. 3 different years with 3 different team under 3 different coaches but one wonderful experience =)

09/10 IVP team.
We are the champion!

08/09 IVP Team.
Though the season ended pretty short, i had so much fun.
This is the super happening team with the outings - morning jog @ Henderson Wave, picnic, prawning, steamboating...damn shiok. i really enjoyed my time. =)

07/08 IVP team.
This is my first IVP team. The so love team.
Not so happening as the 08/09 team but the team was full of love. haha.

we are the champions!!

WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS!!!!! WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS!!!!
Woooooohhooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! I am so happy can! Finally, we won the championship title. 7-1 to NTU. OMG!!! we scored 7 goals!!!!!

The team has really really done well! Of course, we ended it well too! What is sweet is that this is my last IVP and also for most of us too especially Soak. Soak was super on fire that she burnt the opponent goalpost. hahahaha.....

Such a nice way to retire from IVP. weeeehooooooooooooooooooooo!!!! We ended the season awesome-ly!!!!

Individually, i felt i played pretty well today. Was more defensive today but I did pretty well in defending too. yeah baby!!!

What is the best part about this season is that all 3 lines played and all 3 lines did very well. Baik la Alvin =) double win for him some more...1 gold 1 silver =) he must be the happiest guy on earth tonight. hahaha....

NTU IS THE CHAMPION FOR 09/10 IVP

Finally, we have our pictures up on the WALKWAY OF FAME!! woohooooooo!!!!!!!!!

what makes it sweeter than what it already is was that my mummy and daddy came down to watch the game even though mummy not feeling well =). what more can you ask? blessing from your parents is always the best!!!


will be in lala land for tonight!

finalsssssssssssssss

WE'RE IN THE FINALS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! read that again! NTU IS IN THE FINALSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NTU - TP (4-1).
Yes la, scored an opening goal in less than 2minutes into the game. gosh! super happy can =) good pass from seow. while holding the ball, i was like shoot? pass? shoot? pass? in the end, i went for a shot. yes la! One goal for my BFF, Rai =)
So happy that I managed to score some goals for this IVP season. My supposedly last IVP unless I decide to study in NIE. sweeeeeeeeeet! what is sweeter is that we're in the FINALS!!!

The team has done well right from the beginning! We started with a right note and we will end it well. at least with a medal. woooooohooooooooooooooooo!!!!

Can't wait for Monday! Final showdown baby!


Mummy going for an op on Tuesday. I'll be the house daughter for a moment =) Younger brother will be in charge of laundry. hahahah....i hate doing laundry! =)

SIM-NTU Game

The much awaited game. We lost 1-0 to them. =(
Love the atmosphere though most are cheering for SIM. At least, there are people watching. hahah. Today's game was the most intense game. Tempo was freaking high. Sometime, i felt my lungs will just burst and my heart will jump out from my body and my legs will just give in....

As a whole, I think we all did pretty well as a team. We managed to close down the players such as Duck, Pris and Angela. Why my line always have to play against Angela? And I have to always go against her....zzzz...one mistake made and we were punished!

Anyhow, we are playing semis!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Personally, i felt my ball control wasn't that good today. =( One thing I do know was that I really chiong back to defend especially the first and 2nd period. hmmmm.....i feel good on that part. Managed to prevent or blocked some shots. weeeehooooo!

Objectives for the next game (pointed out by Huds...):
1. Maintain possesion
2. More shots especially direct
3. Look up more
4. Stop living in people's shadow. Time to get the moment that I deserve. hhmm....rise to the occasion baby!!

I witnessed something interesting at RP today, during the ITE-RP game. so did the other people who were there. fight broke out between players. damn funny and chaotic. classic. first time i ever seen live fights. cool though.



Someone farted at the bench. It was like a silent killer. It's freaking smelly can? hahah....