Fishing!

My first ever fishing trip! Overnight fishing @ Pulau Hantu. Fun!
Left this tiny island for another tiny winny island at 5pm yesterday. The boat ride is always awesome. The wind and the splashing of water are just shiok!

The whole fishing experience was great. Seeing people get excited when they see their rod moved, when they thought they caught a fish. Hilarious too. The people are nice and friendly. My welfare was well taken care of. haha. I was forced to drink a coconut juice/drink..eat cockles....

I caught one fish too this morning! Too bad didn't take picture of it =( The fried fish was awesome! niceeee! Super fresh!! Yummy!!

One not fun thing was I couldn't sleep at all. FOR THE WHOLE FREAKING NIGHT! so torturous. I think the coffee played a role in this. The weather wasn't helping either. freaking warm! People said if you can't sleep, try count sheep... tried counting the sheeps, donkeys, monkeys, gorillas, godzillas, dinosaurs... they didn't help. My brain was freaking active. I think I managed to catch a 10-20mins of sleep or i should say NAP....zzzz.....

Other than that, the whole experience was great. Meeting new people, making new friends... =) Showering in the toilets with no lights in the middle of the night, showering in cold water early in the morning, catching live fish and so on.... awesome!

Spent my night in Pulau Hantu....

Glad that she jio me for the trip =D

Slacking at the dock....

The crab which made us laugh our heads off when Jill touched it and the crab 'ran' for its life...freaking hilarious

I could have a good night sleep in that

Rise and Shine Baby!

Pris with her BIG catch.

Nice sky. Photo credited to Jill.


Me and the fishing rod.

Back to the mainland.

I have to practise more on capturing this kind of picture!!

When your heart is no longer there, everything seem so sian...everything seem very loooooooooooong cos you keep on counting the number of days for it to end.

I tried to be positive and optimist but I guess I can't, at least for now....all these make it bad...
- the low turn ups
- the lack of motivation (for myself)
- the lack of desire to continue (for myself)
- the not very good outcomes

I know I shouldn't be saying this cos I am suppose to be the motivated, optimistic one...hey, I'm human too... Maybe I shouldn't have hold it, I guess I don't deserve it...at least for now. If I can, I would want to run away but that will only make me look like a coward..

I tried not to think about this but how can I not when every week I have to go through it? Maybe I need some distractions...I wonder how some of them can endure it for years...out of loyalty? Maybe that is what makes me different from them...

The more I spend time with them (the different them), the greater the desire to leave.

Talking to a friend who is in the same boat doesn't make ourselves better but worst.... One thing for sure, we all have our UPs and DOWNs and this is my DOWN...hopefully, I will go UP soon... I think I should take a break but I guess I can't...

Recently my entries revolves around the same thing. Like I said, maybe this is my down period or maybe this is my PMS period. hahah...


ENDURE is what I shall do now and learn to enjoy it ONCE AGAIN....


endure...
endure...
endure...
endure...
endure...
endure...
endure...

For now, I have to finish where I started and hopefully, it will finish well and that opportunity I missed will come again.

The first thing I did when I wake up this morning was to ask my mum, "Can I go for an overnight fishing this Sunday??" She said, "GO la...." wwwoooooootzz!!!!

And so the long weekends are here...like there's any difference to me. lol.

Tomorrow: JB with parents
Saturday: Training then off to a gathering @ Pasir Ris
Sunday: Fishing trip!

awesome! =D


How can you not aware that that is your teammate. obviously you are not paying attention!!!!!!!! urgh! must be the PMS thing.....

And so, my friends and I have officially graduate. We are no longer an undergraduate. Our Uni lives came to a fullstop at 12am just now. I'm gonna miss Uni life no matter how much I hate it when I was in Uni. The friends I made, the people I met, the sports I picked up, the wonderful teammates I have... all that make my Uni life a colourful one. At the end of the day, when you looked back, you won't say (at least for myself) "I scored As for all my modules in that Uni" but you'll say, "those are the friends that I made when I was in that Uni." =)

No matter what kind of honours we graduated with, exciting and interesting challenges await for us. BRING IT ON BABY!


Enough of graduating stuff...

Today I crashed another team's training. awesome. the people are super friendly and welcoming. i loike. and encouraging too. =) Training wasn't as intensive as i expected but still a good one. Good for me to practise my shots and all other stuff. *getting to know my future teammates....hahahaha* First time crash training and got to eat cake and invited to their gathering... how interesting.. heehee... just at the right place at the right time. heehee....Anyhow, had a great time. More to come....?? hmmmm..... Supper somewhere @ AMK...food not so bad...had a great time talking and teasing someone...


Overnight fishing @ P. Hantu...? hmmmm.... hopefully mummy allows...

Looking forward to tomorrow evening. weeeeeeeeeee!!! eggciting!!!! =D

full of question marks.....

Still unemployed.
Still no replies. suck!

Still cannot figure out what I want to do in life.
I always want to do something meaningful in life. Not saying doing research is not meaningful. But I still couldn't convince myself fully that I should go into research. how now brown cow?




I shall go try out management position. =)

mixed and confused emotions =S

sometimes i secretly wish it to pass by quickly.
sometimes i hope it didn't.
sometimes i feel excited.
sometimes i don't feel excited.
sometimes i believe it.
sometimes i doubt it.
sometimes i enjoyed it.
sometimes i don't.

maybe the bad start just make it worst.
I hope these feelings will just go away. far far away. go to Shrek's world!!!

One word: DISAPPOINTED

My this entry will be emo.
Anyone happen to read and be offended, no offence. I'm just saying what my brain thinks and what my heart says.

One word to describe my feelings today. DISAPPOINTED.
No sure if I'm disappointed with myself or disappointed with the ____ or disappointed with the results.

What's the point of having the control but cannot convert it to a goal? What is the point if we have 50 shots on target but 0 goals? Your opponents have 10 shots but 5 goals. You call that hard luck? Do you call it luck when you managed to control the game so well but your shots are all over except the goal? what is the point of having a control when all people will say, they lost the game. even when people ask, you won't say, we played very well but no luck, we lost. losing 5 to nil...i wouldn't say it was because of hard luck. 1-0 maybe i would say they are lucky to win but 5-0. *no comments*
of course you have another people to blame, blame the ref. Ya, ref made some bad and stupid calls. But there are another freaking don't know how many more minutes we can make it right. sigh.

Totally disappointed with myself for having my shots which could be a goal went wide. freaking wide!

Practised so much, but still play like what.....? sigh!

Shall never stop believing. Never stop persevering cos I am not a person who gave up easily.

Quote for the day from a friend of mine and also my idol. Losing is easy but working purposefully to win take team work, change of mind and plenty hardwork. =)

Day 2 of coaching. I'm kind of enjoying it. Slowly gaining the confidence. =) Today, took like half of the session while Jill took the other half. =)
The boys are great. Well-disciplined, well-mannered. Overall, they're good lil boys.

Got a ride from Jill to AMK. Been quite sometime since have my butt on a motorcycle. It was raining half way through. shiok! Ride in the rain was pretty fun. Free massage. hahahah.
She rides more scarier than my 2 brothers...heehee....




OKAY! i just had my forehead hit against the edge of my shelves. SMACKED RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF MY FOREHEAD....i can feel the bump...tsktsk....

I always get excited when I think about it. More excited ever since I know it is really there and it is really happening. Please let this few months pass by quickly! Can't wait for it to happen. Hopefully when the time comes, I will get the chance to be part of it... woooosh! Can't wait, can't wait!



If only I'm not .......... then I will be able to ........... sigh!

Playing any sports requires you to have the composure. The confident to hold onto the ball and control it. It is always good to have that confidence but not being over confident. As a player, I believed I have that confident but I think sometime, I was a lil over confident. lol. At least i have that confidence rather than not having any confidence. =P

Had a friendly with NP yesterday. The game tells it all. sigh. There was a couple of good play but overall, I felt we can do much better. or at least, I can do much better. 2 mistake I made which cost us 2 goals. sigh! Since I cannot play the position I prefer, I shall work something out so that I can do what I always love to do. hmmmm.....

League is starting this weekend. gosh! suddenly I don't feel like playing. I don't feel prepared. urgh! I hate this feeling. I guess when the time comes, it will be a different feeling. i hope.

Tuesday, I have a coaching session. nervous when think about it. gonna coach the RI boys by myself. gosh! ggggrrrrr..........wish me luck!

after this, i guess it will be time for a change. sometime change is good. time to let go of certain thing and explore something new. can't wait for this. hopefully, i can. this can only happen, if it happens, in the next few months. or i shall say in 1 year time. zzzzz..... but let's get over and done with this current situation first. start well and hopefully, ends well too. =)

WE'VE GRAD!

And so yesterday marked the end of our undergraduate life. We have unofficially graduated! This is the moment we all have been waiting for. All the years of studying, mugging, exams and going through the same routine for 16 years have finally come to its end. Oh, I'm going to miss my student life.

SBS Poster Day 2010
Poster Day presentation was not as bad as I thought. I think I did pretty well presenting my poster to the visitors. Good job to me. =D One of my examiner, KY, is classic la! Came to my poster, looked for me then he went on to talk to other guy. When I presented to him, he was distracted and kept on looking at my neighbour's poster which he actually visited before. *no comments* I received good comments from the people. weeeee.......... =)
Standing on heels for 2 hours is bad...4 hours? TORTURE!

CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL MY FRIENDS (SBS OR NOT) FOR SURVIVING THESE 4 YEARS!

One chapter has closed and the new chapter begins. =D

I'm proud of my poster!

My poster neighbour, Huda.

My two besties! Always there to listen to each others complains and whines...

A friend whom I always disturbed to ask for help for my FYP.

There is no point saying "I will play my best for the team". SHOW IT! =)

When there's a will, there's a way.
The statement is so true. If you do not have a passion in doing something, you will find every reason to make sure you avoid it. There's a saying in Malay, "hendak seribu daya, tak hendak, seribu dalih." Translation: If you want it, you will do it in every possible way but if you don't want it, you find thousand of excuses.

I do feel that way sometimes.


If there's no passion in it, then why continue. right? go rilek one corner sua.

and so league is starting soon. like pretty soon. in about 2 weeks time....???

are we ready? hmmm..... we'll just wait and see. =D