When your heart is no longer there, everything seem so sian...everything seem very loooooooooooong cos you keep on counting the number of days for it to end.

I tried to be positive and optimist but I guess I can't, at least for now....all these make it bad...
- the low turn ups
- the lack of motivation (for myself)
- the lack of desire to continue (for myself)
- the not very good outcomes

I know I shouldn't be saying this cos I am suppose to be the motivated, optimistic one...hey, I'm human too... Maybe I shouldn't have hold it, I guess I don't deserve it...at least for now. If I can, I would want to run away but that will only make me look like a coward..

I tried not to think about this but how can I not when every week I have to go through it? Maybe I need some distractions...I wonder how some of them can endure it for years...out of loyalty? Maybe that is what makes me different from them...

The more I spend time with them (the different them), the greater the desire to leave.

Talking to a friend who is in the same boat doesn't make ourselves better but worst.... One thing for sure, we all have our UPs and DOWNs and this is my DOWN...hopefully, I will go UP soon... I think I should take a break but I guess I can't...

Recently my entries revolves around the same thing. Like I said, maybe this is my down period or maybe this is my PMS period. hahah...


ENDURE is what I shall do now and learn to enjoy it ONCE AGAIN....


endure...
endure...
endure...
endure...
endure...
endure...
endure...

For now, I have to finish where I started and hopefully, it will finish well and that opportunity I missed will come again.

The first thing I did when I wake up this morning was to ask my mum, "Can I go for an overnight fishing this Sunday??" She said, "GO la...." wwwoooooootzz!!!!

And so the long weekends are here...like there's any difference to me. lol.

Tomorrow: JB with parents
Saturday: Training then off to a gathering @ Pasir Ris
Sunday: Fishing trip!

awesome! =D


How can you not aware that that is your teammate. obviously you are not paying attention!!!!!!!! urgh! must be the PMS thing.....

And so, my friends and I have officially graduate. We are no longer an undergraduate. Our Uni lives came to a fullstop at 12am just now. I'm gonna miss Uni life no matter how much I hate it when I was in Uni. The friends I made, the people I met, the sports I picked up, the wonderful teammates I have... all that make my Uni life a colourful one. At the end of the day, when you looked back, you won't say (at least for myself) "I scored As for all my modules in that Uni" but you'll say, "those are the friends that I made when I was in that Uni." =)

No matter what kind of honours we graduated with, exciting and interesting challenges await for us. BRING IT ON BABY!


Enough of graduating stuff...

Today I crashed another team's training. awesome. the people are super friendly and welcoming. i loike. and encouraging too. =) Training wasn't as intensive as i expected but still a good one. Good for me to practise my shots and all other stuff. *getting to know my future teammates....hahahaha* First time crash training and got to eat cake and invited to their gathering... how interesting.. heehee... just at the right place at the right time. heehee....Anyhow, had a great time. More to come....?? hmmmm..... Supper somewhere @ AMK...food not so bad...had a great time talking and teasing someone...


Overnight fishing @ P. Hantu...? hmmmm.... hopefully mummy allows...

Looking forward to tomorrow evening. weeeeeeeeeee!!! eggciting!!!! =D

full of question marks.....

Still unemployed.
Still no replies. suck!

Still cannot figure out what I want to do in life.
I always want to do something meaningful in life. Not saying doing research is not meaningful. But I still couldn't convince myself fully that I should go into research. how now brown cow?




I shall go try out management position. =)

mixed and confused emotions =S

sometimes i secretly wish it to pass by quickly.
sometimes i hope it didn't.
sometimes i feel excited.
sometimes i don't feel excited.
sometimes i believe it.
sometimes i doubt it.
sometimes i enjoyed it.
sometimes i don't.

maybe the bad start just make it worst.
I hope these feelings will just go away. far far away. go to Shrek's world!!!

One word: DISAPPOINTED

My this entry will be emo.
Anyone happen to read and be offended, no offence. I'm just saying what my brain thinks and what my heart says.

One word to describe my feelings today. DISAPPOINTED.
No sure if I'm disappointed with myself or disappointed with the ____ or disappointed with the results.

What's the point of having the control but cannot convert it to a goal? What is the point if we have 50 shots on target but 0 goals? Your opponents have 10 shots but 5 goals. You call that hard luck? Do you call it luck when you managed to control the game so well but your shots are all over except the goal? what is the point of having a control when all people will say, they lost the game. even when people ask, you won't say, we played very well but no luck, we lost. losing 5 to nil...i wouldn't say it was because of hard luck. 1-0 maybe i would say they are lucky to win but 5-0. *no comments*
of course you have another people to blame, blame the ref. Ya, ref made some bad and stupid calls. But there are another freaking don't know how many more minutes we can make it right. sigh.

Totally disappointed with myself for having my shots which could be a goal went wide. freaking wide!

Practised so much, but still play like what.....? sigh!

Shall never stop believing. Never stop persevering cos I am not a person who gave up easily.

Quote for the day from a friend of mine and also my idol. Losing is easy but working purposefully to win take team work, change of mind and plenty hardwork. =)